Help! Im 20, unhappily married, and crushing on this guy from A.A..!?

Okay so I just moved with my "husband" from Seattle to Houston in December because he didn't Like it...we married each other for wrong reasons, he liked the idea of being american (indian pilot) and i liked the ten of thousounds coming my way. Ended up drinking daily just to stand him. Dumb idea kids* anyways long story short. In the year and a half since we been married we argue even physically sometimes. He is the girl in this relationship and the b likewise. I need a MAN, I cry almost daily longing for the love Wich i long for so bad. I can't stand him and i know its not good to stay with him but its either him or the streets at the moment. I met this Guy at aa and i click with him so well. I however find myself lying to both constantly and i am going insane. I just want to excape but i feel trapped. I want true love more than any dollar amount. I hate double lives...